Here is a thing that sucks.....
Ever since I grew out my beard for two years, I went from a guy that could get away with not shaving for three, maybe four days to a guy who has to do it every single day unless I want to look like a homeless person walking the streets. Apparently, something about growing it out woke up the follicles and made them more fertile.
Simple answer is to grow it out again. I know that there are a lot of people out there that dig the look but it really bugged me. It itched, my scars would become inflamed when the moisture would stay on them for longer than usual, and the beard required more maintenance than I honestly wanted to put into it. Plus, it added ten years to my face, which I supposed doesn't really matter since the difference between middle age man and crusty old fossil is basically just a term interchangeable at this point in my life.

Why my day is going better than yours...

1.I fell asleep talking to her and woke up with a smile because of it.

2. I scored three cookies on the way out of the hotel

3. An old man (in his 70's) noticed my engineering ring and almost flipped over his luggage to talk to me about how cool it was that the tradition had come all the way from his alma mater. His daughter would have hers in a couple years if that no good boy friend of hers would leave her alone.

4. I discovered this video while cruising toward home.

When a problem asks me to solve using Laplace

The bar was closed.
Apparently guests are not allowed to play the Grand piano after midnight.

A photo posted by Pacehouse (@pacehouse) on Nov 5, 2015 at 11:45pm PST

REDRUM

A photo posted by Pacehouse (@pacehouse) on Nov 5, 2015 at 11:44pm PST

almost there.....

Throw back Thursday (late night/early morning ) edition

nothing to report-just cant sleep

Once again, nothing really new to post. We haven't really worked on the house while we are dealing with more tax issues. So instead of real issues I am fluffing with a survey from Dismas on Facebook. 
Enjoy. 
Z

EDITED TO INCLUDE MODERN DAY RESPONSES. 

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?

2008
Damn I cut the hell out of myself. I need to get a buzz shaver

2015

Damn, I need some coffee.  
2. How much cash do you have in your wallet right now?
2008

43$

2015

I stopped carrying a thick wallet and carry a money clip now. 114$

3. What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
2008

Bore, core, fore, four, gore,hoar, lore, more, pore, roar,sore, snore,spore,store,tore,wore,yore...and how could I forget, as a Winnie the Pooh fan...Eeyore?!

2015

Same.....
4. Who is the 4th person on your call list on your cell phone?
2008

Duda

2015

Duda again, just labelled as her real name now. 
5. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?

2008
Funki Porcini playing The Great Drive By from Love, Pussycats & Carwrecks 

2015

The Iphone default ring
6. What are you wearing right now?

2008
Old grey sweater and comfortable jeans

2015

New grey sweater and comfortable jeans. 
7. Do you label yourself?

2008
All the time. But the labels change every few hours or so.

2015

nope
8. Name the brand of the shoes you’re currently own?

2008
Dockers,Reeboks, Red Wings, and Wellco 

2015

John Doe, BCG tennis shoes, Brooks Brothers, and vintage Converse

9. Bright or Dark Room?

2008
Dark 

2015

Subdued lighting with light walls. 
10. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?

2008
She is a fire cracker when the fuse burns in and you are waiting for the explosion

2015

She better call my ass if she wants me to bring her some real McNuggets when I see her next year. 
11. What does your watch look like?

2008
mid 1950's gold and silver mens everyday watch

2015

Still rocking the old Rolex but have added a model from this century. 
12. What were you doing at midnight last night?

2008
asleep on the couch with Dracula on the TV

2015

Talking with her
13.What did your last text message you received on your cell say?

2008
"I love you"

2015

Sweet dreams, Nite 
14. What’s a word that you say a lot?

2008
Rude!!! (Its from the out of the hood program)

2015

Awesome (I have no idea why I have started saying it a lot lately) 

15. Who told you he/she loved you last?(please exclude spouse , family, children)
2008
Since we are excluding spouse, family and children.

I would have to go with Buffy the dog. She was just curled up in my lap with her head over my shoulder before I started this. 

2015

Her
16. Last furry thing you touched?

2008
My puppy Buffy 

2015

Buffy
17. Favorite age you have been so far?

2008
teens 

2015

right now
18. What was the last thing you said to someone?

2008
Good night. 

2015

I'll take the trash to the road in the morning before I leave. 
19. The last song you listened to?

2008
Bah Samba - So Tired Of Waiting

2015

Renegades - X Ambassadors

20. Where did you live in 1987?

2008Commerce

2015

Same
21. Are you jealous of anyone?

2008
Not any more.

2015

Not jealous, just envious 
22. Is anyone jealous of you?

2008
Don't know, don't care, either.

2015

Don't know, don't care.
 23. Name three things that you have on you at all times?

2008
Phone(might not be charged), keys, ipod

2015

Phone, money clip, wallet
24. What’s your favorite town/city?

2008
Sitia, Crete

2015

Brighton England
25. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

2008
In February 

2015

Just the other day actually.
 26. Can you change the oil on a car?

2008
No, why bother when that's what service stations exist for.

2015

Yes, I have always been able to do it.Taking care of my cars is a matter of pride to me. 

27. Your first love/big crush: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
2008

She is a flight attendant. 

2015

She is still a flight attendant, 
28. Does anything hurt on your body right now?

2008
My left leg always hurts lately

2015

Left leg and temples
29. What is your current desktop picture?

2008
Eiffel tower in the fall of last year 

2015

A close up of Murphy's nose 
30. Have you been burnt by love?

2008
Burnt, cooked, charred, toasted, scortched.....

2015 

I have been burnt, but the person whom did it to me, is mending that. 

Status Update:

I have a pool of water in my shoes. My underwear is tightening up on me as I type.  My office chair is soaking wet. I am cold already and there is an ac vent directly above my head.

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I love my motorcycle. It gives me the freedom I desperately desire on a day to day basis. Whether I am riding through the mountains or cutting around cars in midtown, there is nothing like the feeling of not being tethered down. 

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I checked the weather as I drank my morning coffee. The day was foretasted to be in the 70's, overcast and only a 10pc chance of rain. Awesome riding weather. I can get away with my open face helmet and just the leather jacket for my ride to work....so I thought. 

The 10pc chance of rain found me as soon as I hit 75n and followed me all the way up to the perimeter. There was such a downpour that the water was getting into the engine, making it shudder and lose power, which is a bit nerve racking while being surrounded by decaf extra foam caramel frap drinking office drones who would rather look at their phones instead of watching the road. It rained on me so hard that my suit which is normally protected in a bag for me to change into when I get to work was completely soaked through. My leather jacket is about 10 lbs heavier since it has adsorbed enough water to be currently on my coat rack dripping still after half an hour of being out of the weather. My gloves which are supposed to be weather proof, are...they just arent where my hands stick out of them. I have had wet hands for the past three hours and currently look as if  they are the hands of a 90 year old man. (wrinkled) 

Getting in to work, I  drop off my suit at the cleaners at the Marta station across the street for them to dry it out and began the day with a frog pond in my pants.  Everyone is making fun of me. So badly that I am debating on just running to Target for a replacement shirt and pants. This would be the point where I would have something funny to say but honestly, Im wet, Im pissed, and I just want this day to end already. 

Vent over. 

Sexy Meat Pie, Wait, I thought that we had to be something we weren't already everyday.

Whenever walk into my co-workers office and point out the missing semicolon

A note to you while you are in the bathroom.

Its hard to act cool in front of you because whenever I see you, my brain is like, "This person is so wonderful, now say something stupid" and I'm like, "Awesome idea brain" then I say something stupid....because I'm an idiot.

Honestly, I am having a wonderful time with you. You are heading back this way. Got to go. 

Something big is on fire at the airport.

Update from Daddy class

So the perverted hippy nurse tells the Daddy Class that we will be watching the process of a child being born tonight . This is fine

This is fine. I have seen the old high school health shock flicks on the subject. No surprises here. The young man I have been partnered with tonight however must have skipped that class while he was knocking up his 16 year old girlfriend. 

About midway through the crowning section of the film, I look over at his face and see THIS. He was in total shock of what was about to happen to his little girlfriend. 

Randomness, I know. I just though I should share. 

Found online.

Five Shuffled Songs

open your music player.
click random
list the first 5.........go.

1. Clocks -  Dallas String Quartet

2.  Nothing Else Matters - Apocalyptica

3. Anyway you want it, - Journey 

4. Cowboy Boots - Macklemore & Ryan Lewis

5. My Dearest Darling - Etta James.  

1. For the last 5 years, I have had a Linux server running in my office for random file storage, running the motion sensors on the back doors, and monitoring the temperature of the aquarium. At a draw of 4 Amps, that is almost 700 dollars a year in power. It took me this long to calculate that. Today I took it all down, transferred everything to either a stand alone netbook or hosting on the Amazon Cloud and powered off the tower. 
2. After writing the post the other day about the LLee, there has been this deep feeling of regret sitting on my chest because I let her go. Tonight, when my paperwork was done and I was just sitting in my favorite chair reading a book, a powerful urge to sail again hit me. I want to leave from Savannah, and hold a course of straight east until the lights of America drop below the horizon. I want to go where when the sun goes down, there is nothing but the black. I miss the deep rumbles of thunder in the night as the waves lap at the side panels. I want to lay on the deck with someone and look up at the milky way as we pass through the universe. 
3. I am fighting the tail end of a sinus infection. How bad is it if tomorrow instead of going to lunch, I head down the street to my gym and just sit in the sauna for an hour? Im at the dry sinus stage which hurts in this cold snap we are having right now. There is no way I am contagious yet I am worried about someone getting all pissed off at me if I let a cough go in there. 

Cleaning out the photo folders on my server tonight, I happened on this photos from the last trip I took on my boat. This was the end of a long trip down the coast of Florida for a delivery to the new owners.
When I pulled port that morning, the sun had not even begun to rise into the sky. I knew that I would never feel her shudder after going over the top of an extremely tall wave. That was the one time I was afraid for my life as well as having the best time. We would never race a pod of dolphins in the wash of the Savannah river. We would never again pull into an international waterway for shelter from a strong thunderstorm. Those were fun.
This photo was taken as I sat on the pier, waiting on the couple to show up with the rest of the retainer payment. I had sailed all night non stop just to make the deadline for delivery. It was the best night on the water I had ever had. That boat pulled me through the hardest mental part of my life up to that point. She was what I needed in order to retain my sanity.
I never should have let her go.

"People say that you should move on and that there are other fish in the sea.
I say fuck you, she was my sea.  " 
 

J Faulkner 

 I just picked a piece of asphalt out of my cheek.

24 years old asphalt .
That crap has been in my face for 24 years and I didn't know it.
I wrecked my skateboard on Dogwood Trail's largest hill my 8th grade year of middle school. The skateboard which I was on was not set up correctly for speed and about halfway down a speed wobble threw me off balance, I then hit a stone which in turn sent me face first into the blacktop and skidding into the creek at the bottom of the hill.
The scars were all over my face. When I get hot or excited, you can still see where my red face does not match up with the rest of it. I took off a large section of the my upper lip, above the right eye and most of my chin. For years, I would occasionally feel some coming out of my upper lip.
Now apparently, I have to worry about it still in my cheek.

Five things that make your day.

1. Coffee in a cool car before the heater kicks in. 
2. Scotch on the back porch just as the sun drops below the horizon. 
3. Seeing the first leaves fall off the live oak in my backyard. 
4. A program compiling perfectly, the first time. 
5. Seeing a message from her. 

There is a 99% chance that in the last week, I wrote a comment about missing someone on someone's blog but deleted it before posting it.

We are on a small break between meeting sessions. The first one ended a bit early so instead of 30 minutes, we have an hour. The two women from our NY office have done nothing today but complain about how much they hate the city and office for the last 50 minutes. They have been talking about the most non essential crap, talking over each other, and trying to oneup the other about who had the harder night travelling and how bad their hotels have treated them.....(insert me groaning). The biggest part of this whole show of pseudo power which has pissed me off is that they have phrased everything in the most passive aggressive way.
These are supposed to be representatives of our public relations department.....What are they thinking? These behaviors are what make corporate leadership seem to everyone else as cold and impersonal ententes.
There is plenty of stuff to hate about corporate work ,I know this but I don't hate what we do just because of where we are in life.

You know what? I don't believe that people in Atlanta know how to handle weather. The last time I saw traffic this bad was when the "Snow"pocalypse happened.

Plug headphones in ...
wear headphones.....
decide that the silence is better than music....

I've reached a new high in my adult life.

Tech lesson:
The algorithm which dictated autofill on your phone looks at previous conversations to determine if the current conversation/typing can be shortcutted for an autofill from a dictionary list of words which are spelled similarly.
(end of lesson)

I was spelling out fundamentally. FU was as far as it needed to autofill in fucking. I may need to watch my language a bit more in group text sessions.    

It is 5:03 in the morning

Do you know where your sleep is?

So, I didn't get to do a single thing which I had planned on today. Strike that. I did go to Walmart for some paint brushes. That is all though. When I got home and was packing the car up for the range, my next door neighbor caught me and asked if I had a few hours to build a dog house for his new pups. Now, I would like to think that I am a pleasant person and willing to always help out a neighbor in need. But today was an example of why I hate people in general at times.

1. He had no plans ready to build a dog house. 
2. He brought over his two little kids and expected me to teach them how to use tools. 
3. The pups we...I built a house for were brought over by the 4 year old and commenced to tear through the house, attack Tigger, started chewing on my office rug, and then after shooing them out of the house for the third time, they tackled Murphy so hard that he fell from the porch and collapsed to the ground when he couldn't get back up. 
4. The boys needed constant attention, so much so that a job which should have taken 2 hours took all freaking day. 
5. He let his 5 year old boy decide if a board joint was straight. which in turn made the frame uneven, then commenced to say it was the fault of building skills which had made the floor wobble.
6. (side note: they are devout Mormons) at 4 o'clock, he decided that this was taking too long and said he would be back after going to temple....his wife called later and informed me that they would not be back until well past dark. 

Once they left, I finished the work on the house alone, cleaned my tools up, swept the back porch, and finally went inside at 8 pm for my first meal of the day and a glass of scotch. The project had taken 14 hours working with that family..

Next time they ask me for help, either I do it by myself of there will be some major issue at work which requires my attention right then and there.....

So tired. Need a shower and another scotch. 

Such a lovely afternoon for a drive home.

Insomnia stinks without broadband.

I'm in Commerce for the night with my Grandmother and in the morning, dealing with an issue with my mother's estate. As usual my insomnia has me wide awake at 3:04am . This normally wouldn't be an issue if ithis weren't also a house with no internet or open wifi within range. I've been sitting here in one of the guest bedrooms, reading Southern Living June 2008 for the past hour.
Maybe a late night run to Walmart is in order. 

My lounge chair is not safe either....

I'm watching Forrest Gump.

Everybody always hates the Jenny character for how she treats Forrest but I really don't see her in that light. She was a broken little girl from the moment she was on the screen until the end. The way she treated Forrest was in my view, not using him, but she was keeping herself from treating him the way her father had treated her years in the past. Everyone sees Forrest as this retarded idiot, aspergers maybe, Jenny included. She knows him better than anyone else in the world other than his Mother. She is the only woman that he has ever wholly loved. I personally believe that she loved him even more but was afraid of what those feelings would actually mean to her. She didn't have this strong example of what love even meant because of her father and his abusive  advances. Every man she comes in contact with sees her as this thing to be lusted after and is afraid of hurting Forrest when all he wants is her love.
The script has it's stupid moments that I really hate though. The way she goes from abusive relationship to relationships where she is being taken advantage of is total crap. She just want to find her place in the world, where that is, she has a hard time discovering. She thinks that as long as they aren't what she had at home, it is right. But, she keeps going back to what she knows (getting beat on, sexually abused, pressured into drug addiction) I guess that is the reason that she gets so upset when Forrest defends her, she thinks that this is just the way life is.  Each time when she is alone and realizes that she has slipped back into the old ways, she moves on once again. She thinks that this is normal life.
She keeps Forrest at arms length because just like the movie, she thinks that he is so dumb that he really doesn't know what love is. She convinces herself as a young age that Forrest just believes he loves her because she showed him some friendship on that bus ride. This is total bullshit...What Forrest has for Jenny is simple and unencumbered love for the one woman that he will always keep in his heart. There is no way else to put it.  If you watch how she keeps leaving him through the movie, she runs the first time, rides, walks, then slowly rides off  with a glance back for the last time before she comes home for good. She is slowly realizing that she feels the same way about him as he has since their childhood. It was only at the end when she realized this about their relationship and totally opens up to him/shares her secret with Forrest. Her behavior isn't wrong. Her behavior is just what she sees as what will make her happy.
 Which, to me, is the saddest part of the whole movie.  This movie to too freaking depressing.




(edit)
Jenny just passed away...20 years old  and still makes me upset.

Why I can't write in my journal while in bed at night.....

Guys with hair have good hair days....I have good beard days

 Ginger beard

Baby face (me) 

updates and ranting after a weird night.

Life stress dreams has always given me the worst nightmares. With the onset of the new job promotion, the baby on her way, and the research paper deadline looming on the horizon there is no reason to wonder why the nightmares have returned. Yes, my insomnia is still bearing down on me as always. I'm still looking for an alternative to the pharmaceutical zombie inducing meds  of late, but they are the only thing keeping me from seeing the sunrise every morning. So what happens in the night? This morning at exactly 3:45am, I sat straight up in bed thinking about how life can be totally random in its path. We are born, grow up, we make some small change in the human existence, we die.
This is my nocturnal life and thought processes from now on it seems.
So what do I do in the ass end of the night? I come down stairs and try to not wake the dogs as I get a glass of water. Yeah, that never really happens as well as one would hope.
If one dog wakes up, they both wake up. If they wake up, they have to pee. Walking the dogs at 4 am is just as sad as it sounds. While just letting them out into the back would be fine but they would just come back inside wet from the grass dew.
Last night as we went past the park at the Library, we passed a lone jogger which made me think, "Who the hell jogs as 4 in the morning?" but then I thought about how he saw Buffy, Murphy, and I "Who the hell walks their dogs at 4 in the morning? What a weirdo". This also led me into thinking about if he had woken up with the same life/death thoughts running through his head and just decided to run it off/

Either way, It 5 am now and the sky is just now starting to show the first purple hues of a fresh dawn on the horizon.
Time to start the new day.

The days of just being Uncle Zach have come to an end.

Daddy blog

http://daughterofincominggoats.blogspot.com/

C++ compare two different txt files

//============================================================================
// Name        : Dynqueue
// Author      : Zachary Standridge
// Version     :over a billion
// Copyright   : You wouldn't download a car would you?
// Description : opens and compare two different txt files.
//============================================================================#
#include <iostream>
#include <fstream>
#include <cstdlib>
#include "Dynqueue.h"

using namespace std;

int main()
{

   //creates an input file stream object

   fstream file1 ("file1.txt", ios::in);

   //creates another input file stream object

   fstream file2 ("file2.txt", ios::in);

   //creates two queues to hold characters.

    Dynque<char>queue1;
    Dynque<char>queue2;
    char ch1, ch2;

    //read all the characters from file 1 and puts them in queue 1.

    file1.get (ch1);
    while (!file1.eof())
    {
        queue1.enqueue(ch1);
        file1.get(ch1);
    }

    //read all the characters from file 2 and puts them in queue 2.

     file2.get (ch2);
    while (!file2.eof())
    {
        queue2.enqueue(ch2);
        file2.get(ch2);
    }

    //close

    file1.close();
    file2.close();

    //compare the queues

    while(!queue1.isEmpty()&& !queue2.isEmpty())
    {
    queue1.dequeue(ch1);
    queue2.dequeue(ch2);
    cout << ch1 << "\t"<< ch2 <<endl;
        if (ch1 != ch2)
       {
        cout << "\nThe files are not identical.\n";
        return 0;
       }
    }
        cout <<"\nThe files are identical. \n" << endl << endl;
        return 0;
}
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#ifndef DYNQUEUE_H_INCLUDED
#define DYNQUEUE_H_INCLUDED
#include <iostream>

using namespace std;
//stock template

template<class T>
class Dynque
{
    private:
        struct QueueNode
        {
            T value;
            QueueNode *next;
        };

        QueueNode *front;
        QueueNode *rear;
        int numItems;
    public:
        Dynque();
        ~Dynque();
        void enqueue (T);
        void dequeue (T &);
        bool isEmpty ();
        bool isFull ();
        void clear ();
};
//empty queue//
template<class T>
Dynque<T>::Dynque()
{
    front = NULL;
    rear = NULL;
    numItems = 0;
}
//deconstructor
template <class T>
Dynque<T>::~Dynque()
{
    clear();
}
//Inserts
template <class T>
void Dynque<T>::enqueue (T item )
{
    QueueNode*newNode;
    //new node
    newNode = new QueueNode;
    newNode->value = item;
    newNode->next = NULL;
    //adjust front rear
    if (isEmpty())
    {
        front = newNode;
        rear = newNode;
    }
    else
    {
        rear->next = newNode;
        rear = newNode;
    }
    //update
    numItems++;
}
template <class T>
void Dynque<T>::dequeue(T &item)
{
    QueueNode *temp;
    if (isEmpty())
    {
        cout << "The queue is empty.\n";
    }
    else
    {
        item = front -> value;
        temp = front;
        front = front->next;
        delete temp;
        //update
        numItems--;
    }
}
template<class T>
bool Dynque<T>::isEmpty()
{
    bool status;

    if (numItems >0)
        status = false;
    else
        status = true;
    return status;
}
template <class T>
void Dynque<T>::clear()
{
    T value;

    while (!isEmpty())
        dequeue(value);
}

#endif // DYNQUEUE_H_INCLUDED
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The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.

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----------------------------------------------file2.txt---------------------------------------------------------------
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'I never forget a face, but in your case I’d be glad to make an exception.'

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create all files in the same folder, compile the cpp and enjoy