Five Shuffled Songs

open your music player.
click random
list the first 5.........go.

1. Clocks -  Dallas String Quartet

2.  Nothing Else Matters - Apocalyptica

3. Anyway you want it, - Journey 

4. Cowboy Boots - Macklemore & Ryan Lewis

5. My Dearest Darling - Etta James.  

1. For the last 5 years, I have had a Linux server running in my office for random file storage, running the motion sensors on the back doors, and monitoring the temperature of the aquarium. At a draw of 4 Amps, that is almost 700 dollars a year in power. It took me this long to calculate that. Today I took it all down, transferred everything to either a stand alone netbook or hosting on the Amazon Cloud and powered off the tower. 
2. After writing the post the other day about the LLee, there has been this deep feeling of regret sitting on my chest because I let her go. Tonight, when my paperwork was done and I was just sitting in my favorite chair reading a book, a powerful urge to sail again hit me. I want to leave from Savannah, and hold a course of straight east until the lights of America drop below the horizon. I want to go where when the sun goes down, there is nothing but the black. I miss the deep rumbles of thunder in the night as the waves lap at the side panels. I want to lay on the deck with someone and look up at the milky way as we pass through the universe. 
3. I am fighting the tail end of a sinus infection. How bad is it if tomorrow instead of going to lunch, I head down the street to my gym and just sit in the sauna for an hour? Im at the dry sinus stage which hurts in this cold snap we are having right now. There is no way I am contagious yet I am worried about someone getting all pissed off at me if I let a cough go in there. 

Cleaning out the photo folders on my server tonight, I happened on this photos from the last trip I took on my boat. This was the end of a long trip down the coast of Florida for a delivery to the new owners.
When I pulled port that morning, the sun had not even begun to rise into the sky. I knew that I would never feel her shudder after going over the top of an extremely tall wave. That was the one time I was afraid for my life as well as having the best time. We would never race a pod of dolphins in the wash of the Savannah river. We would never again pull into an international waterway for shelter from a strong thunderstorm. Those were fun.
This photo was taken as I sat on the pier, waiting on the couple to show up with the rest of the retainer payment. I had sailed all night non stop just to make the deadline for delivery. It was the best night on the water I had ever had. That boat pulled me through the hardest mental part of my life up to that point. She was what I needed in order to retain my sanity.
I never should have let her go.

"People say that you should move on and that there are other fish in the sea.
I say fuck you, she was my sea.  " 
 

J Faulkner 

 I just picked a piece of asphalt out of my cheek.

24 years old asphalt .
That crap has been in my face for 24 years and I didn't know it.
I wrecked my skateboard on Dogwood Trail's largest hill my 8th grade year of middle school. The skateboard which I was on was not set up correctly for speed and about halfway down a speed wobble threw me off balance, I then hit a stone which in turn sent me face first into the blacktop and skidding into the creek at the bottom of the hill.
The scars were all over my face. When I get hot or excited, you can still see where my red face does not match up with the rest of it. I took off a large section of the my upper lip, above the right eye and most of my chin. For years, I would occasionally feel some coming out of my upper lip.
Now apparently, I have to worry about it still in my cheek.

Five things that make your day.

1. Coffee in a cool car before the heater kicks in. 
2. Scotch on the back porch just as the sun drops below the horizon. 
3. Seeing the first leaves fall off the live oak in my backyard. 
4. A program compiling perfectly, the first time. 
5. Seeing a message from her. 

There is a 99% chance that in the last week, I wrote a comment about missing someone on someone's blog but deleted it before posting it.

We are on a small break between meeting sessions. The first one ended a bit early so instead of 30 minutes, we have an hour. The two women from our NY office have done nothing today but complain about how much they hate the city and office for the last 50 minutes. They have been talking about the most non essential crap, talking over each other, and trying to oneup the other about who had the harder night travelling and how bad their hotels have treated them.....(insert me groaning). The biggest part of this whole show of pseudo power which has pissed me off is that they have phrased everything in the most passive aggressive way.
These are supposed to be representatives of our public relations department.....What are they thinking? These behaviors are what make corporate leadership seem to everyone else as cold and impersonal ententes.
There is plenty of stuff to hate about corporate work ,I know this but I don't hate what we do just because of where we are in life.

You know what? I don't believe that people in Atlanta know how to handle weather. The last time I saw traffic this bad was when the "Snow"pocalypse happened.

Plug headphones in ...
wear headphones.....
decide that the silence is better than music....