So I went to the doctor today and had a talk about the fact that I haven't been asleep in days in god knows how many hours. I started having these weird hallucinations at the edges of my field of visions today so I went to see the GP and discovered that my blood pressure was through the roof.
The doctor prescribed me Xanax, but due to my past and fear that I will become addicted to them I turned down the pills flat out. He told me that if I want to cure my insomnia without pills, that I should do what sets me at ease before bed since that is what used to work for me. I didn't tell him that I am not able to do that anymore.....

I'm screwed.